still

Tuhan...
aku masih...
bri aku kekuatan...

beautiful

i've observed and i look deeply in their eyes...
there were not much satisfaction reflected from their face...
the world told them they are pretty... but most think not...

i've seen girls worries about having pimples on their face,
i've seen girls could stand in front of mirror for hours and still saying they don't look good when actually they are not as bad as they think...
i even see myself sometimes being in that pictures

but even so...
i was reminded that all beauty meant nothing much when it comes to love...
it does make someone like someone, but it does not determine someone to want to spend the rest of their life together...
it is more than just beauties...it's what inside that counts...
the beauty within makes us fall in love

i was a bit relief to know that i don't have to worry about all these things
what color to put for my make up
how much effort i have to make just to make myself to be called beautiful
or what dress to wear and which color or shoes and bag to choose...

but it doesn't mean that i agree being messy
is just that i'm happy to know that i was and am created beautifully in God's eyes
all the days passed just 1 thought pop-up; does God like what i'm wearing today?
Do you think Jesus would whisper "tessie you look wonderful today"
or "tessie you look gorgeous today”
that feeling… calms my heart…
is just amazing to know that He still think I’m beautiful even though I just woke up with a sleepy pale face
is just a soothing feeling to know that He still love me anyway…